T'aimer de tout mon être

Ugh. I hate bandwagons. Especially when I tend to jump on them. But I hate this lj even more, so I did make a new one. I haven't a clue if it will be the same or different, but I think I will post in French once in a while. That should be exciting. And maybe all you previous immersion nerds will not lose your French right away. Add if you love me!

Anyway, the new journal is non_dits

So I don't write very often, which is probably a good thing for everyone who is forced to read, but I think I am going to change that. The only thing is that I will no doubt talk about stuff that no one on Livejournal...or at least the journals I read write about. So I may mention sex and stuff. And probably more about my opinions and feelings and all of that junk, too. I usually only write to update or when I am pissed, but I don't want to remember my life as being a continuous list of things I did or something I was mad about.

If you don't want to read any of this, befriend me. I will not be hurt, I will be happy that you were at least honest.

A new year, a new me?

Well, I am taking an idea from the book of Kristen, and mentioning my grad party too. It's on facebook, but I only invited people I was pretty positive would go. If you weren't invited, that is why. But you are still invited to come! Shall be an awesome time. BYOB though. Mom's rule, not mine. [except you, Britt, I think we are sharing?]

It's on Friday, June 29 at 24 Edgewater Drive [Sydney Forks]. It starts when you get here and basically gones on until everyone leaves. It's a come and go thing. Limited room for sleeping unless you bring tents, like Kyle said he was doing. We have two couches, three big chairs and a cot, but I don't know what family members are staying. Be prepared =P

So, I'm breaking.

I am going the Friends-Only way.

Life, as we all know it, will change dramatically.

Bye, bye unwanted eyes!

So going out tonight certainly backfired, but whatever. I was actually somewhat happy. I had planned to write my thesis statement or study for one of the three tests [all of which are for or on Thursday] or finish reading my book for English, but those plans fizzled out as well. Instead, I watched Friends, The Shopping Bags and Gilmore Girls. My brain is turning into mush.

Margaret's Museum is not as I remember it. I thought it was more whimsical when I first watched it. Mind you, I was eight.

I can't wait for Thursday. I haven't so much as been stressed, just gradually more and more annoyed lately and I know that Thursday will cheer me up.

Applications are finished. That makes me so happy. Now just more scholarship stuff. Oh, how I hate not having a trust fund or something.

Brittani, I hope you actually stick to the non-smoking way of life. I know you're not addicted or whatever, but I don't want you to die of lung cancer, emphysema, stroke, etc. I'm only mean because I care. Sorry that you took it as an attack.

Well, that's all for now.

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle/Random
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button



Opening Credits: So Pure - Alanis Morissette
First Day At School: Proud Mary  - CCR
Falling In Love: Happiness Is A Warm Gun - The Beatles 
Breaking Up: You're My Baby - Roy Orbison   
Prom: LA Woman - The Doors
Life's OK: Somebody To Love - Queen
Breakdown: Waiting On A Friend - The Rolling Stones
Driving: Rapture - Blondie
Flashback: Welcome To The Jungle - G&R
Getting Back Together: Summertime - Billie Holiday and Louis Armstrong
Wedding: Keepy On Rocking In The Free World - Neil Young
Sex Scene: It Ain't Me Babe - Joaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon (Walk The Line)
Birth of Child: Please Forgive Me - Bryan Adams
Final Battle: Line And Sinker - Billy Talent
Death Scene: Hell's Bells - AC/DC
Funeral Song: Whiskey In The Jar - Metallica
Dance Sequence: Goodbye Yellow Brick Road - Elton John
End Credits: What's Going On - Marvin Gaye

All in all, I found that hilarious.

When I'm feeling sad, I simply remember my favorite things and then I don't feel so bad.

* Warm knit sweaters that smell like lavender. [Like the one I am currently wearing]
* The song "Sad Songs Say So Much" by Elton John
* Reading horrific novels that make me cry for hours afterwards
* Snuggling =)
* Reading happy emails/notes.
* Cinnamon toast
* Coffee
* Hearing kind things about me
* Dancing like a moron

What are yours?

I wish I was twelve again. I spent Friday night/Saturday morning with four kiddies and it made me realize how much I missed that time. They talked about boys, junior high, crappy teachers and planned their next sleepover.

Remember when we used to do this?

Or have you already forgotten?

So, my favorite class by far is Can. Lit.! It isn't really what I expected at all...I expected a small class where I talked to Krystina and Brittani [the only people I originally knew were in the class], but it's large. Some transferred, some tried, hopefully all succeed soon.

English isn't what I expected either. Considering the people, you'd think I'd like it more. Especially because it is usually my favorite class. At least we get to read great books.

Today was the week of birthdays. My aunt Donna's was on the 4th, my brother's was on the 6th and Katie's is today. Her party is tomorrow. It is not only a party at the movies, but a sleepover at the hotel. Which I am chaperoning. Did I mention these kids are between the ages of 11-12? Should be interesting, to say the least.

Well, off to do some english/french homework.

So, school. Did well on all exams/classes [minus math, but I passed] so we're ok there. Went to english. Not terrible...I was expecting better, but you can never really tell with the first day. Can. Lit. will probably own my soul. Mind you, there are too many grade elevens and too many people who seem moronic. Hope they leave or turn out to not be as hard to deal with. I am regretting my decision to take geography. I should've stayed with ressource, but it will be an extra french course, I suppose. I didn't sit with Erin, which was my original plan. Oh well. French should be interesting. It is a mix of everyone that I've ever been in a french class with. Mind you, I can see myself not speaking to anyone except Britt, Becky and Naba. The awesome semester I imagined has turned out not to be so stellar.

I really hope Barb McLean doesn't expect me to be a wonderful writer. I am predicting major disappointment in english. Should've stayed in regular, where WEIR is not needed. Damn me!

Kiernan is back. Probably just for today. I think he has Larry Keel fooled already. Will that boy ever grow up?

I find it funny that a person who shall not be named dropped a class to avoid another anonymous person and myself. Your loss, the class will be amazing.

Not sure where I stand with anything anymore. It's the last semester of high school. The real goodbye. Why are we all parting ways already?

I feel terrible. I have a pounding headache, my stomach is floppy and it feels like I am about to throw up, I feel weak and heavy at the same time and I think I'm about to faint. Please, someone, diagnose me!

Crown Royal has a disgusting taste to it. Why do people like this stuff? [I believed for a second that the stuff would make me feel better. Safe to say it made me feel worse.]

Exams are finished, and I never want to see any of those classes again. Maybe business, because I owned it.

Epic Movie sucks, no one should see it. It was truly terrible. Why do people make terrible movies about sensational ones? Jealous, much? That's so high school...

Speaking of high school, when will it end? Brittani and I decided to go back to Leave It To Beaver when all your troubles were simple and solved in thirty minutes. That would be the life.

This entry is completely random and stupid. I wouldn't blame you for not reading it.

I wrote two exams today. Only two more to go and they are the easiest ones! The huge weight has been lifted. I seriously could float right now if I hadn't eaten birthday cake for my great grandmother a couple of hours ago. Oh Weight Watchers, what fun you and I shall have. Aha, I was never going to mention that to anyone but Brittani 'cause it makes me sound retarded. My enormous love of food stands in the way, but whatever. I like carrots.

This week has been major University week, along with major exam week. Two schools contacted me yesterday. One by phone [King's College..I know they called everyone, but it was so unexpected that I pretend they only called me...even though I have no intention of going there] and one by a crazy package of stuff [Sainte Anne is trying to buy my love...little do they know that I will no doubt be going there].

Does anyone remember the Gameboy Color? I got one for Christmas when they were the in thing and played with it for a week. I found it two nights ago and cannot help but play it. I own one game [pinball] and it is amazing, even though it's Pokamon and I never really followed that thing. I feel so old because they are now considered vintage. It reminds me of my old original Nintendo that only had Duck Hunt and Mario. I wonder what happened to that...

That's it for now. I guess I sort of updated...

I officially stopped studying for the Math provincial and le Droit.

I reeeally hope that the whole "Only 10% of Math 12 students pass the provinicial" thing is something that the teachers tell us for motivation.

Otherwise, I am screwed. The 2004 provinicial has questions that I have never seen before [luckily, they were crossed out] and also a question that NO ONE understands.

That reminds me, has anyone from Histoire started the questions for the exam? I finished all but number two...I am not completely sure what she wants. I don't care if you now think I am a moron, explain it to me! Also, how long were yours? I am assuming two pages per question should suffice.

If you see me tomorrow, I am likely to be a big bundle of nerves. Calm me down, please.

I am so bored it is ridiculous, but I studied a lot today and refuse to continue. Brittani, why do you have to work when I'm bored? Mind you, you would probably be studying if you were home anyway.

So, I have been thinking about my birthday. It is not until March, but I think a giant celebration is in order because I don't believe my parents/brother will be home. Dad is away in Alberta somewhere and my mom/brother will be in Halifax for a hockey tournament, and it's on a Friday. Who doesn't love to party on a Friday during March break? Well, if anyone is at all interested, tell me, otherwise it'll end up being me sitting on my couch with a party hat on my head - alone. Sad. And for the first time since our two years ensemble, Alex will be home for my birthday. Miracle? Not so much, the boy hasn't planned a trip yet, so he is stuck here.

That's it until I get crazily bored again.

I just read my friends page and it makes me depressed. I hate that all of you seem so sad! And what is with everyone changing to friends only? I feel like I must ride the wave, but I find it hilarious that drama is caused from me not only owning one of these, but for actually using it, so I don't think I will.

I cannot wait for exams to end. I hate the studying and my family members asking me how it's going. How do you think it's going?! Ugh...

Nothing else is new. Picking up Brittani tomorrow after her exam, then Alex will be coming over after the english provincial for some major math studying. Surprisingly, I feel more at ease with the math exam. More worried about the classes with crazy facts and definitions.

If anything comes up, I will mention.

Stolen survey from Sarah, Meghan and Brittani because there really isn't anything to update on.

[ NOW ]
Current mood: bored, loney
Current music: n/a...watching 90210
Current taste: nothing
Current hair: up, a mess
Current clothes: pj's and Alex's sweater [which is my sleepy sweater]
Current annoyance: nothing
Current smell: air..
Current thing I should be doing: studying, but I spent most of the day doing it
Current windows open: Msn messenger, livejournal and a conversation with Libbus
Current desktop picture: Alex and I in Florida
Current favorite band: The Beatles
Current book: Nothing, I am waiting for Can. Lit. and English next semester...but I just finished The Kite Runner
Current cd in stereo: I can't remember the last time I used my stereo
Current crush: I don't have crushes
Current favorite celeb: Drew Barrymore

[ DO YOU.. ]
Smoke?: Nope.
Do drugs?: Nope.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: I rarely remember dreams
Remember your first love?: Yes
Still love him/her?: Yes
Read the newspaper?: When it's here
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Yes
Believe in miracles?: To an extent
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: of course
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes. very tolerant.
Consider love a mistake?: Used to
Like the taste of alcohol?: Yes
Have a favorite candy?: Skittles/pink peppermints
Believe in astrology?: no
Believe in magic?: nope
Believe in God?: yes
Have any pets?: Buzz [dog] and Snookie [cat]
Go to or plan to go to college: yes...planning.
Have any piercings?: ears
Have any tattoos?: Nope.
Hate yourself: not really
Have an obsession?: not an actual obsession
Have a secret crush?: I don't do crushes...
Have a best friend?: Yes =)
Wish on stars?: rarely

[ LOVE LIFE ]
Ever been in love?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
Do you believe in "the one?": not really
Describe your ideal significant other: pretty happy with the one I have

[ETC]
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? no
Have you ever been drunk?: yes
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": explain.
Are you a tease?: bahaha hardly
Shy to make the first move?: no.

[ APPEARANCE ]
Hair: blond
Eyes: blue
Height: 5'4"

[ LAST THING.. ]
Bought: I honestly cannot remember
Ate & Drank: cantelope and water
Read: The Kite Runner
Watched on TV: 90210

[ EITHER OR.. ]
beer or cider: neither
drinks or shots: either
cats or dogs: dogs
pen or pencil: pencil
gloves or mittens: gloves
food or candy: both
cassette or cd: neither
coke or pepsi: pepsi

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO.. ]
kill: well...
get really wasted with: meh doesn't matter
look like: myself
avoid: there are a couple

[ LAST PERSON YOU.. ]
saw: mom
talked to on the phone: Alex, but texted Brittani last
instant messaged: Becky

[ HAVE YOU EVER.. ]
Drank alcohol?: yes
Done drugs?: once
Broken the law?: nope
Run away from home?: yes
Broken a bone?: my jaw...but I didn't break it
Played Truth Or Dare?: of course!
Kissed someone you didn't know?: yes...
Been in a fight?: with my brother
Come close to dying?: not that I know of

[ WHAT IS.. ]
Your favorite thing for breakfast? Subway breakfast sandwiches / Mickey waffle with strawberries
Your favorite restaurant?: Hard Rock Café
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? poptart or fruit
What is your biggest fear?: heights / guns / knives
Spontaneous or plain?: spontaneous
Do you know how to play poker?: bahahaha no
What do you carry with you at all times?: lip chap / wallet / cell phone
How do you drive?: well I sit on the seat...
What do you miss most about being little?: everything was so simple
Are you happy with your given name? not really
Have you ever been in a play? believe it or not, I was in drama from grade 4-6 or so
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? um...not at all. just make me sad.
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? I suppose, mind you others have their own opinions

I haven't done one of these since I was extremely angry with some people, so why not start over? [Thanks to Sarah, who I just stole the idea from]

1. You never change and I love that. Please keep bringing this uncontrolable stability to my life.
2. I wish you could finally realize that there is no point. And if you've realized this once and for all, end it. You don't deserve this.
3. Stop doing this. It's driving me crazy. Everyone can tell you are lying and concealing things and enough is enough.
4. Nice to know that I do not exsist to you anymore. Too bad I hurt someone for you. You really weren't worth it and I regret it.
5. I never liked you anyway.
6. I really hope she leaves you alone once and for all. And me, for that matter. Neither of us need a person like that in our lives.
7. You surprise me sometimes. You will do anything for her and that makes me happy.
8. I wish I didn't become friends with her. I think it ruined what a great friendship we could have had.
9. I hope you feel better soon.
10. Do you like me or not? Although everyone tells me that it's just the way you act, I can never tell.
11. We will never be friends again, and I have come to terms with that.
12. You make me laugh, but you don't have to be so happy all the time. I can deal with drama.
13. You make life so difficult. I am counting the days until I never have to see you again.
14. Either you will really hurt her, or the other way around. Either way, you will both be miserable.

Well, that was fun, wasn't it. Oh the suspense!

You wouldn't understand if I even explained it, but it was the saying throughout the whole trip. Which was awesome, by the way. Only problem is that I AM LOST! I was going to do the majority of my homework before I left [I managed to finish business], but other than that, zero. Zilch. Nadda. So if you are in any of my classes, ESPECIALLY history, I majorly need you. Remember that big project that was due when you all got back? Well, I haven't even touched it. Not one bit. If you love me, or even at least feel some pity towards me, you will steer me in the right direction. And I will be forever thankful.

I majorly missed four people [other than family] during this trip. Brittani, since you are the only one who will read this, you are one. And you will loooooooove your present [I hope...]. If not, I'll keep it!

I saw Naba! He was on my plane from Toronto to Halifax! Crazy timing or what!?!

Surprisingly, I have nothing to say...'til next time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITTANI!

I find that you're completely awesome.

Time for porn ...and voting...

Holidays are over and for the first time since I can remember, they went off without a hitch. There were a couple of rough patches and whispers, but my family stayed intacked [well as much as we always were] this time. No crazy fights, no slamming of doors, no ignoring or silent treatments. In my book, it was a pretty damn good Christmas. Everyone loved everything they received and now the world will get back into its usual routine.

It is officially five days until we go to Halifax, and then the next day will be filled with Home Alone-style running all through airports and all the madness of travelling, but by two o'clock on January 2 we will be in Florida. I know there isn't a lick of culture there, but I could care less. It is my place to be materialistic. I get to go shopping. At amazing stores full of brands I will never be able to afford. I know it sounds weird, but going somewhere like that just makes you feel good.

That is all for now.